Finally after almost a month the doctor called with the results of the biopsy they performed on the two moles they semi-removed. Finally…and I took a breath and listened as she told me “the one on you back came back negative” (whew) “and the one on your hip came back with abnormal cells” (inhale), “that came back as not cancerous” (um ok) “but could turn into something in the future” (um ok) “so we’d like to remove that as a precautionary measure.” Great…my heart is racing at this point just imagining had I not gone this year, had they not suggested to biopsy these..well let’s not think about what could it be down the line. I finally exhaled and inhaled again and had her repeat what she said about the mole on my hip, which they want to take the rest of it out, requiring stitches. “Ok, now how do I do this around softball, I wanted to run the 5k in October” I thought, and then thought about it again from a realistic standpoint to f$%# my schedule - I want this taken care of now.
I found myself saying ‘no’ to events people are planning ahead for in October, I’ll miss a few games of the fall season. I won’t run in October in that race, hoping it will be back next year. I said ‘no’ to a race in November, knowing I won’t have time to prepare. It actually gives me a goal or two to work harder toward in the winter and to get stronger. Strong enough to do a 10K when this comes around next year. Strong enough that I made it clear I’m doing the 40 miles in the Grand Fondo bicycle race in 2013.
But now a week to go and its on my mind. How many stitches? How are they going to remove this? How much pain am I going to be in? Do I have to buy more gauze? (My first aid supply is quite abundant since I had my first bout with stitches 3 years ago.) Are they going to use a cork screw to take it out? What’s the over/under for the amount of stitches? All I know is that I have to come back in 2 weeks to take them out..who knows what kind of, if any pain I’ll be in for that time.